Sunday, September 07, 2008

Bye bye my dear dog

咪咪是条狗
咪咪是我的狗,才养了3个月不到
咪咪很可爱,可是奶奶不喜欢,她说好狗不挡道,可是咪咪老是睡在路中间
咪咪很可爱,每天下班回家,她都会很热情的扑向我,有一种亲人的感觉
咪咪很可爱,可是奶奶不喜欢她,怕她咬了别人
咪咪最后终于被奶奶吵着送走了,到了乡下
咪咪我很想她,今天下班没有看到她我很失落
下班回家,爸爸头疼,妈妈在看买马的书,潜心研究着,我警告说:这是骗人的,不要看
妈妈给了我一个狠狠地眼神和言语:没事干,看看哦该咯??
咪咪我很想她,因为她有时候给了我似乎家人的温暖
我的忠告,妈妈不听,反而还觉得我挡了她的财路
咪咪我很想她,如果我一个人住,我想把她接过来
咪咪。。。。

Friday, June 20, 2008

Befor the exam

The day will come out that i am waiting for a long time.. i quit my job, for 3months no working to prepare for this. it is worth. i have a really good friendship with Wade, Tracy and He zengyan whose are help me to practice my oral English. i am very thank for them, especially Wade who comes from Ontario.We knew each other last year maybe in the fall. We just like the old friends i think.. because he encourage me to i have to move on and never to give it up which my dreams to go abroad to study or working. He used to like to me as a younger ,as a student just to graduate from the university. He said i am very like to him and he can see the shadow who used to be him. So he really would like to help me just like a big brother. i think i am a lucky girl to find he. That is very difficult to find someone who you actually feel well and honor but he did. so i really want to make a well friendship with him and wish he keep health and happy in there ..

Finally i wish i can go there and continut my study by his help...

PS: These day sometimes i think about the guy who let me first to falling love.. and see the articles before i writed.. the time is the best doctor to treature people get out the badmood, i have been in the deeple pain for so many years even i got another guy. it is difficult to express and tell . i really need to progress myself and improve myself to help me forget it. more coulorful my life that it is let me forget him ..i just thinking my life not only the love for the valentine but also for the family , the friends and many thing else.. keeeeeeep goooooooooin...

Sunday, October 07, 2007

just hold on my dream

I am very nice to meet william, i think he is good guy and will make some useful suggestion for me, so i should hold on my dream, don't give it up and keep move on, that i wanna just to say and to work hard study.
Good Luck for me!

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

如果我明年结婚,你会来吗?

今天终于看见了很早以前静姐要跟我介绍的对象,除了比我想想中的还要矮点以外,其他的兴趣爱好我们很像。。。我在考虑是否继续交往。。如果很投缘的话,我想会把他作为结婚对象考虑吧。。。回家后给刺猬发了个短信:如果我明年结婚,你会来吗? 我是想知道他的反应怎样? 其实那天去游泳我开玩笑的说:没有美女来,我也算一个来。。他立马就说:那算了,我不感兴趣。。这可能是潜意识的暗示,我们只能做永远的朋友,他会很照顾我,很相信我,但是我们永远是朋友。。。我的心很疼。。很疼。。很疼。。尽管现在我在打字,默念着我打出的每一行字的内容,我的心都很疼,很疼,很疼。。今天认识的这个人,也许他会很疼我,也许我们以后觉得合适说不定会在一起,但是我晚上还是给了刺猬最后一个机会,他回信说: 我不明白?如果他是真的喜欢我,他就会试着想知道这到底是什么意思? 但是他仍然没有把握。。我始终是个替代品----洋洋的替代品。。。从开始到现在都是。。。我的心很疼,很疼,很疼。。我以后会有很喜欢,很疼我的人出现,真希望这个人是他,可是现实是他不够爱我。。。。。
有人说自己的幸福靠自己来争取,如果一个人不够主动的话,那证明你还没有让他主动到 放下自己的一切来成全你。。这个社会好人很多,但爱你的人不多,他只属于好人。。。。。
----If I will getting marry next year,would you like to come for my wedding?
----I am sorry? I don't understand your message...if you really get it, that soundsa like good,congradulation.
----"crying from my botten of my heart....."

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

GO FAR AWAY

I am nearly lose my way of the working, often think about my future .. what should i do? And which kind job is my favorite one..i told to my boss that i wanna to be a higher position,just like the asistance manager of HRM.But she though i haven't enough experiments to get it, i just give it up??
my job now that is a very boring working ,everything i should be all ready and remeber to do ..eventhough copy the form of everything in the office..and i don't think my boss will see my advantages in the future..so. i wanna to go ...

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Swimming

昨天和他一起去游泳了, 虽然整个晚上好像就是我一直在大喊大叫的,因为我怕淹死去,所以老是要他在旁边保护着,万一没力气了,游不动了,我就死鸭子一样的手阿叫阿到处乱动,然后他就会抱起我往安全的地方送,那种感觉真好,当然我只是单纯的说我们两个在一起时的感觉,我只知道,只要这样就可以了,我门不需要很亲密,只是偶尔可以互相陪伴,也许现在的我们早已经把对方当成可以完全信赖的家人拉。。。尽管我也有一点点的幻想过,但是我也怕了,所以还是不要有奢望。。我尝过那种感觉,知道失去最喜欢的人是个什么样的情景,想到要到哪里去玩会叫他一起,因为我喜欢有他陪伴,他会很细心的照顾我,当然我也知道那也许是他觉得当初亏欠我的,补偿我的。我很清醒。。。我很清醒。。。可笑的是,往往说这种话的人就是在灌了数瓶酒后吐出的让人哭笑不得的。。。所以我只能说:我要坚强!!我要坚强!!

Monday, July 30, 2007

过了这么久,你到底走了多远??

今天因为工作上的事情很心烦,不知不觉打了电话给刺猬,我一直叫他刺猬是因为我觉得他的内心很像刺猬一样,不可让人接近。。外表看起来很可爱逗人,其实每当人们靠近时得到的就只有被刺伤或者刺穿。。他本人都不知道外表包裹着这么多的武器,只是本能的逃避着,隐藏着,希望永远也让人看不到自己的真实,其实我都看到了,在这武器背后的脆弱,但他自己并不知道,他的眼里没有希望和永远。。也许有一天,有某位可以让他彻底解下防备,活出一个内外都一样的自我来。。都过了这么久,你到底走了多远???
我一直都在想这个问题,每次当我失落时其实沮丧是其次,我在乎的是是否你可以以最快的速度来到我身边,安慰我,鼓励我。。其实这个要求对于普通朋友来说有点苛刻,我并不奢望每次你都能及时赶到,只是我在第1000次的失望时,打了一通你的电话,如果你没有过来,我想等到下一次打给你时我是练习接受第5000次失望了。。走了那么远,我累了,所以我现在也许是玩着游戏,有点不甘,有些冒险,有些同情,有些感情,有些不舍又有些留恋。。。很多很多很复杂的感情在里面,我也说不清楚道不明白,只知道我在年轻时想真正拥有一些属于自己的东西,也许他现在就是,在我任何时候都可以借过来倾诉的人,欺负的人和信任的人,对我而言,他有时候是那么得让我放不下心,有时候又是那么得让我想逃之夭夭。。
老歌唱得好,糊涂的爱,说也说不清楚,糊里又糊涂。。
但是我好像隐约感觉到,真正爱我的人不是他,我把他当知己了。。

Sunday, July 15, 2007

我应该懂事些。。。

突然发觉自己还是不知天高地厚的生活着,有目标但是还这样懒洋洋的遗忘在角落,等哪天有情绪了,觉得自己可怜了,生事坎坷了再把这些妄想丢给别人瞧瞧,捧出一句:其实你们都不懂。。我这是什么玩意儿。。 有时候真恨不得踢自己两脚。。。有可嫌人的味道。。不是说自己要学法语吗?不是说想争取当培训老师吗?不是还雄心勃勃的扬言以后月薪要4000以上吗?依我现在的进度,我真是个大笨蛋和傻瓜。。。天真不是罪过,罪过的是不知道弥补天真的不足。。madison....

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

where is my bole?

i always think that i am genient and i wiil be found by someone who can see my tailent.. i am not a openguy to express myself.. that is a key why people don't think i am a right guy to do this .. i always very puzzle to this but that is my character and i can't change anything.. but i think i am a right person to winner.. i wannna be the winner...

Monday, May 07, 2007

距离

      其实,一开始是很高兴碰到他的,但是发觉, 有时候,真的如歌里唱的, 相见不如怀念。。。 我以为我们的谈话还可以如新鲜的蛋糕一般,甜美, 开心,令人心神愉快, 可是结果很令人遗憾。。好久不见,好久没聊了, 在电脑的两头,我们在文字间轻松谈笑,但心里却五味杂陈。。。 何必呢??
      今天晚上我有点伤感, 一句“习惯了“打在白白的电脑屏幕上, 习惯了什么? 是你习惯了我的表面看上去的轻松调侃, 还是我早已经习惯了你字里行间透出的那份距离。。 。。 我们一开始就是有距离的,始终还是有距离的,最终也因为距离而游走。。
      那不是长长的线牵出的有限,而是在我心里用眼泪凝聚的无限。。。 
      距离, 不是问题。。 问题是, 有些人无缘跨越这距离。。。 

Saturday, April 28, 2007

i will be catch you -!

今天被老大又策了, 她还真是越策越开心了阿。。我只好假装没事, 但心里老不好受的,我做秘书的工作才开始第五天, 而且现在前任也走了, 想问也搞不赢阿。。 老大今天出办公室 两个钟头, 回来后就跟别的同事说我:“她还真不关场阿, 搭在椅子上的衬衣 我出去这么长时间竟没有来办公室瞧瞧把我的衬衣拿衣架子挂起来, 不会看事做事啊”。。。 我晕。。 。。。 她签好的文件摆在桌上了,策我没去在她不在时帮忙整理出来, 那个向来是她自己放在指定的位置时才代表可以拿走了, 有时候多动了她的东西又怕她策, 不动她的东西她也策,唉! 初入职场我还有很多东西要学啊,难怪文靖姐在走的时候说:你做事要特别细心拉, 而且即便是工作做好了也要察言观色。。。
所以在今天挨了老大的第三次策后, 我躲进卫生间里调整情绪去了。。。。
今天下班比平时晚半个钟头,但老大还没走。 我先走了。。。
我一个人走到了北大桥附近, 望着夜幕快降临的湘江。。。。 坐在湘江旁愣了半天。。。
我以后不会比她差的,我以后一定要超过她!!!!!
我就对着湘江这么喊了一句:我以后一定要超过你!!!! 旁边一个拿着手榴弹大小收音机的老爷爷 从我身边经过时, 用惊奇的眼光看着我, 然后又去调节他那个信道不好的实事要闻去了。。。。
是啊, 小小的我是多么的微不足道。。。 偶尔发出的愤怒也只能在滔滔的江水中激起片刻的波纹。。。
郑老师说: 这就是经验, 你让我想起了我刚毕业的那个时候。。
惠姐安慰我:没关系, 才接手。。 过一阵子事情上轨道了,就不急了。。
奶奶叹着气对我说:钱还真的不好赚阿 。。。
我对自己说:未来我要赶超老大! 老大策我的事情, 我绝对不犯第二次。。 要我注意的事情, 下次一定留心点。。 因为我以后要比她更优秀的。。 所以现在要在她身边潜伏着,努力学习。。 她26 岁就能做到经理级的位置, 一定有我可以吸收的宝贵东西。。 她每次策我时 , 当时太激动就躲到卫生间去。。 就像今天一样。。
把策我看成是她给我的培训吧。。。 把我培训成一个可以和她竞争的对手!
Dreams will come true!!!!!!!!

Thursday, April 26, 2007

i will be catch you -!

Today is a bad day , i was criticismed by my feman boss, she is a very fasion and achviment girl with too yong just 26 years old, in my botton i think that is very difficult to get so high position with this age. In fact, she is a very capatity person i have to cofussion this thing.. but she just have to everything with her speed , everything is perfect... i just get this new job for 5 days, i haven't to do so many things in such short time, i just try my best to do the missions by my boss.. i am afraid that she don't think i am not a ringt guy who being perficient in this position.. i think i am learning everyday, i am less the mistakes as less as possible.... i will catch you.... this afternoon when i saw the xiangjiang river , i think i will be good and get a great achivement..
stand by and keep up

Monday, April 02, 2007


This is my dream house, i really wanna to have so nice bedroom, just one desk ,one chair,one big book box and one wonderful bed. when i wake up in the sunday morning i can see the shining through the window and the nice smelling around whole the room..... so fantastic... i think that is a very charming idea and i want to make that come true...

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Today is my birthday

Today is my birthday , just 5 persons remember this . but i still very happy , i thank for such kind friends .... and i also want to thank for kelly and zhangzihui .they are the workmates in HRD in JIACHENG. yesterday when i got his massage i was so happy because i think our story just like the movie called happy birthday by liuruoying and gutianle... maybe we still will do not forget the birthday each other after so many years later.. today i am 22 years old ..

Sunday, February 25, 2007

我的女孩

刚刚看完my girl 后,心里空下了。。。 这是很多人都说过的, 陪着剧中的人物一起开心,失望,伤心,难过,甚至男女主角因命运多舛而几次擦肩而过之时, 自己心里都不免有些许的伤感。。。。 这种感觉真的痛苦。。。 有时候希望故事永远都不要有结局, 就让自己沉溺在剧情中,沉溺在那个或甜或苦的梦中,永远都不要醒来。。。。但毕竟这只是一场戏,一场让我这种感情脆弱的家伙暂时麻醉和逃避现实的异常美丽的焰火。。。 在瞬间燃烧殆尽之时就注定了结局是满天的阴霾。。。。。 怎么办。。。。 我以后都不想再深陷那种美丽的诱惑之中, 在不知不觉逼出心中最深的情感后自己又不得不承认这只是个虚幻的剧本, 现实依然还要继续, 看了这么多, 我的情感是否也会被改变呢? 我也不知道。。。。 只想期望以后的我能勇敢的分清什么是真实什么是虚幻。。。。。心被掏空的感觉很难受。。 可明天还得继续。。。 象朱欲玲学习无论自己处境有多沮丧, 加油/加油/加油。。。。

Sunday, February 18, 2007

明年让自己活得精彩。。。。

2007年新年钟声敲响之际, 我还在房里忙着帮尧尧下跑跑卡丁车呢。。。 我这天收到了很多人的短信, 除了他, 可是我差一点就忘记了还会有他。。 但是可悲的是 我最后记起来了。。。 随即我先发了条给他。。 他回得很快, 而且短信内容也很简短,看上去也是止乎此的意思。。 也就是说没有再接下去聊天的多余话语。。。当即, 我的心其实再一次寒了半截。。。 曾经说过不再留念什么,曾经表面看上去是那么懂事,曾经也曾开始过另外的感情为了忘却的纪念。。 但是个这么久为什么心里还是如此的不舒服和痛心。。。 这是新的一年,给自己点勇气和信心吧。。。。

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Beyond The Changsha Sunshine

this is the specioua church in changsha , and everysunday there will have so many people who believe the Juise..
and this building is very nice ..



Zhongshanting it means don't forget the great man who called Sunzhongshan .. he has tellent and passion to our country ...
Today is a sunning day , i plan to take some photos beyond the sunshine , and i wanna tell some places that we are not pay more attention in changsha . that are the churches in changsha gaps...




at the first photo is a house that had belonged to a master who called Lifuchun .. he is famous in the second war in chinese field .. as Maozedong..




to the second picture called Zhongshanting .. made in zhonghuaminguo period ..










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Friday, January 12, 2007

爱情结束我们抱着哭

这个主题我想还是用自己的母语来表达比较好, 我的中文博客他也许会看到的, 所以写到这里来了,因为知道没有人会来这里看。。
前天我们班的同学全体聚会,在学校附近的饭馆吃了一顿,刚开始还好, 可是后来等到觥筹交错之后,首先是一个女生突然哭了起来, 不知不觉大家在一起都四年了,虽然我们班看上去是那么的不团结,完全不屑于任何事情, 但没想到在那天晚上,原来大家都很是伤感,因为我们要大学毕业了,军训的日子现在还历历在目,可以转眼我们都长大了这么多。。。
我酒量不敢恭维,所以唯恐到了大家最high 时扫了兴,所以早早的躲到了饭店外, 拿了杯热茶站在街边慢慢的喝着,他静静的过来了, 然后还开玩笑的要求我跟他合张影, 我欣然答应。。。假装很大方的微笑,摆pose。。 然后又呆呆的望着街边飞驰的车子。。 他可能喝多了点,走到我正前方,直直的看着我,又是那种眼神,两年前曾让我感到我是世间上最幸福的人的眼神, 他神情变得凝重起来,憋了好久终于说:能让我在抱抱吗? 我当时眼泪差一点就决堤。。为什么? 每次想怎么样时就可以认为对我提出的要求我就一定会答应吗? 我已经不是两年前那个我了, 因为你, 我现在已经改变了很多。。。 我没有答应, 把话题扯到别的事情上去了跟他聊了些有的没的。。。 他强拉住我的手相把我往怀里拽,可是我还是强硬的推开了, 因为我怕, 我默默自己添着那个伤口过去了两年多, 但我怕万一再一次拥抱时, 我又会陷入很长一段时间的阴霾中。。 他没有说什么了,一下子泪水从他的眼睛中流出来, 他哭了,为了我,他在我耳边不停的说着:对不起。对不起。对不起。对不起。。当初分手都是我的错。。。。 这句话我等了两年。。 我都快不记得曾经他的拥抱我的那种感觉了, 他是个很内向的人, 虽然表面上是个十足的嘻嘻哈哈,乐天,开朗的人但是内心从没向任何人敞开过,也包括我, 所以那时候我们才会分开的。。他说那时他对我太坏了,完全的没有尽到做人男朋友的责任。。。。 抱着我哭了很长很长的时间, 就像个摔了跤的小男孩一样, 我摸着他的卷发, 说:过去那么久了 , 算了, 我原谅你了, 感情的事双方都有责任, 也许我第一次作人家女朋友也不知道怎么样了完成好那个角色, 所以所以。。。 他哭得更伤心了。。。一个劲的说都是他的错,都是他的错。。。
大概过了一个钟头了, 等到他情绪平静时, 我说:我们那时都没长大, 都不懂得什么叫珍惜, 所以不知不觉中就会伤到对方。。。 但要学会在每一次的经历中学会成长,不要重蹈覆辙。。。 生命要向前看,要相信自己的明天一定比今天过的精彩 ,不然就不要过明天了。。所以不要对自己悲观。。妄自菲薄。。。他说那是觉得我很不懂事。。。 我听了只能以笑带过。。谁没有过少不更事的年纪呢? 但每个人懂得多少事, 不是任何人都看得出来的。。 我给人的印象就是那种懵懵懂懂, 四六不懂的小青杏的样子,但有谁知道我都经历了什么呢???? 离开他以后在我的生命中真的发生了很多戏剧化的故事和风波。。 。。 我不想那么轻易的让人看出来, 因为最终还是得自己解决。。。。
我告诉他, 以后要对你的女友真诚点, 要把心里的话对她说出来,因为她是你的女友, 以后一定要在该表达时就勇敢表达出来, 敢说出喜欢一个人就要在分开时勇敢的说出不喜欢, 那才是男子汉的作风,因为两年前到最后分手时他始终都没对我说出是否还爱我, 只给我那游离的眼神和内疚的话语, quizas,quizas,quizas 这是一首西班牙语的歌, 歌词就是那感觉。。
我们谈了很多, 他好像那晚才开始重新认识我, 说我懂事了很多。。爱情的悲哀就是在这里, 当他终于了解我时, 我早已走远了他的世界。。。。。
可是蚊子说看到我们能这样好好坦诚相待的说出自己心里的那个节,感觉真好。。 那晚我们重新认识了彼此,可是我们都知道再也不可能回到以前了。。。。
比朋友还亲密一点,比恋人疏远一点。。。现在牵手说再见,让回忆变成美好的朋友。。彼此都长大了,成熟了,蜕变虽然痛苦,但还是每个人必经的过程。。
不要回头不要挽留, 爱情结束我们抱着哭,四行泪洗出两条对的路。。。爱不会被记恨,会深深被彼此记住,在这个时候我们放手祝福。。。
爱情结束了, 我们抱着哭。。。。

Saturday, December 23, 2006

MERRY X'MAS TO MYSELF

how are you ? where are you?
i really want to know and why don't you lend any letter to me ?
forget me eventually or comepletely.
i don't wanna foever since you went. i don't believe any romantic story since you leave, i don't hold anybody tired.
gone with the wind . keep up my work .
and i have some plans about in 2007.
firstly , i want to find a teperometry job and i can learn the experiments about HRM. i want to be a HRMer . and i think i can do it .
secondly , i will participate the iles.
thirdly, i have to keep learn my second foringe language franch. i want to use it freequently.and that very useful with my career.
there so many dreams for me . and i am a winner , my purpose is a great idea. i want like tangshizeng who are my favorite international journalist . my aim is living like him. freely and romatic travelling .

Saturday, December 02, 2006

i lost again

today , i feel i just have no contribute with my graduation examinations. i online all day and do the things nothing with my job my study . just like a very litter guy not know my purpose ..
i asking myself again when i lost something . and this time i quit my computer exam by 3 times. c语言 to me maybe very difficult but why everyone can pass it except me. i think that is a very simple question , i had no hard worked this . ohhhhhhhhh......................... my god . that is a very very bad thing to me ...


now i have to learn it again by 5 times................
my god , that exam is a big devil to me ,,,,,,,,,,,,..............

Friday, December 01, 2006



these are the photoes in FengHuang in 2005 summer. that is a small villege of HuNan province.. west of changsha ..

i come back here finally

i thought that i nearly have lost this blog, oh thank godness, i come back finally..
maybe i have not add my blog for so many days , so my writing have no imprevement.

now i even don't know what should i can say..
but i very happy to get this bolg again .. eventhough there have no audiens to have read my story , i like here ..really , because i can writing what i want ..

Thursday, October 26, 2006

violin

Recently, i find a pop singer on line who comes from Caribbean. she is a very good singer with a perfect vioce to us. the favorite song of her is the "Final Goodbye".
yesterday i had been a communication with a MBA on line by QQ . he is a kind guy . don't matter my poor English .. haha . i really thank to him would like to help me ...
i finished my the eighth lesson for the violin .. it is a amazing musical instrument.. believe i like it since i was five.. when i was a little girl i likef useing the chopsticks as a violinist. but my parents had not enough money to pay the high price of lessons . i still i can do the really violin just touch it like a true feeling . when i was 21th birthday . i know even i have enough money , i want to learn it .. so i brough it by the first . at that time i had no teacher , i just want to buy it. and then i find a good teacher in a musical stroe . so many people are they who like the musical .. i really respect my teacher. maybe i can not to be a good performer but a violinist of my fameily . that is enough...

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

uncle's trip

my uncle 's fameily came back last week.. he is my papa's old brother. Now his fameily are living in USA. That sounds so good.. i really want to go abroad to the USA. .. that is not so easy to me . i have to past the toefl and at this first i must can apply the so experience price of the examination.. about 1500 RMB. that is a big number to my fameily.. i like freedom in the fresh air and the environment but i have to face up the truth .. i have not enough money to pay for the so high price applications..
however i accept what . i would like to catch the opprotunities all my life. makes life more happness and more well.. don't let my parents do so more hard work .. earn the money by myself as soon as possible..

Tuesday, October 10, 2006



我在上海照的一些照片: 外滩, 上海博物馆。
i took these pictures in shanghai in July 2006.
i think the shanghai museum is a very value to travelling . i saw so many treasures in there that all belong to our great history and civilizations.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

The Middle Auturn Day

今天是中秋节, 晚上陪家人吃过晚饭后就回家了。。 临到了十二点时, 他发了条短信过来,祝我中秋节快乐, 我早就不奢望他会记得我了。 看到他的短信让我很伤感。。。。
我们总会在经历了苦痛挣扎后才会成长的。。所有难忘的回忆也许都留给了他, 而那也可能只是我单方面的。。。。 也许他的回忆早就留给了比我早到的人。。。 我曾经很幸福过。。

Monday, October 02, 2006

国庆节快乐

这几天是中国的国庆节, 全国都放假。 其实我在家挺闲的。 老是一个人跑出去逛街, 因为是全国人民都放假, 所以无论是书店还是街上, 到处都是人, 看了就头晕呢。 。。 我就一个人跑到湘江旁去了。这里人少,清静啊。不知为什么 , 我高兴不高兴, 孤单或有人陪时 都喜欢去湘江, 可能我对他有特殊的感情吧。 我总觉得那些日夜不息的河流就是我曾经存在过的证据。 我想证明自己其实很充实, 很有激情的在这个世界上活过。。 所以我喜欢湘江, 而且很依恋它。。 时间流逝

Sunday, October 01, 2006

i still waiting



where are you ? i often asked myself. why you went to so fast . i am not the girl who you will
love strong. i want to prove that i can do it that makes my oral English so well. i catched any chace to practice. i still alone. for shihong and uwe. the two man who had liked me so much but at the end of time they go away from me. i think i will be strong and never fare anythings. like the summer sunshine before that. i am so young and i can face up to everythings that so hard .

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Captain! My Captain!

Dead Poets Society

It is a very famous and great movie. i have seen it today. And when i was watching the story i just say that is very good works. i have never seen so really firm like this . it is all of the students and the challeng ot the nowadays education.
Do you kow the Mr. Kitting. He is a fullpassion teacher in the traditional school. And when he came there . He wake up the kids in the school . Students are not the tool of the Developing Education.They have the ture feeling , thinking , different style in their lives. They are not the machines of the study. They need the open mind visions and the freequently thinking . They can writiing , singing , dancing and loving. That is the true life. And when they old they can remeber the passion when they were young. That is the truth. Life have to acting .
Mr.Kitting just like the river in the hill and it would like to water the students. when the first lesson is think about the old people who had studid there in the old pictures. He teached them how to feeling of the life , express the love to the girl who that you loving , do that to want to do .
form your style that just belongs yourselves, how to acting and how to keep up the dreams.
try our best to fullfill my dreams , try our best to live for myself. that is the point of Mr. Kitting. his class has the enthusiazn and passion to the life. they teached the kids how to read the ture poets , like shakespare and yezi.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

today , i know a news. there can be ture that IELTS application in the USA, it is a good sigh , i think i should chang my idea. i can try to get the IELTS. I think it is easy than TOEFL. obvioselly there is not easy things can get.. i have to study hard more than before.. stand by...
and my uncle and anty will come back from CA . inUSA . It sounds so good. my uncle is a successful man i think . i hope can to be come a nice guy like him ..

Sunday, September 17, 2006

i teached my father that how to use the computer



i am very happy to see my father who can learn on line.. because he is a very glad to learning and studying .

i wil teach him how to writing and how to scan the news on line. he think it is very interesting. he very foward to study . yesterday i finished my NO. 6th violin lesson. my tercher said you have to practice everyday. i try my best to do it. i have to get more and more time to ready the graduation of HuNan University for next year . i just have about 3 mouths . good luck to myself. this blog for my own so i can say anything to me . i like this bloy

Friday, September 15, 2006

where is my future?

i often think about my future. where is it ? It is a very valuble things to me . i try my best to practice my oral English . . so i made friends with Nurik , Travis and Uwe.. espacially Uwe.. . before we meeting . i think this magic story just a dream and i can make is come ture. because i finally find a man who i really feel so nice and makes me happy without any press and fair.. i think i can with him for so long time . but broken fast. when i realize i like him . him have to go away for his work.i know that he just like me and not love me .. so we story stop in the winter 2005.. now i am fraid to talking with the forigners beacuse i miss uwe.. maybe my classmates think that i just like the culture of aboard . they think that i juat like their blue eyes and brown hair but they don't know i am not that guy .. until now i just like uwe..
since that winter i stop my practice with other forigners.. i don't forget the days when with uwe..
how about my future . i still don't know. i just a kate in the air and lost the line.. who can find me ?

Thursday, September 14, 2006

i have a decision

i finally make a importent decision that is i plan to get the graduate study , i was very puzzled before beacuse i don't know how can i do and i really can do this ? i have no confidence. but now i think i get the answer . i should try once time . it is a opportunity to me . who can say that is impposible . i should enhance my decision and keep the atitude.
now there have other problems . first i have not enough money to pay the examinations . including the HRM 's and the training classes of the graduation.
i have to think about something with the money . i really don't add the pression to my family. i think they also have not enough them to me .
i hope i can pass the examinations of the graduate . i don't want to waste my family property if i have not enough talent of study .

Saturday, September 09, 2006

it taked in last year. i had a wonderful summer holiday. i went there it called Fenghuang little village in summer sunning vacation with my other three friends. we were very happy to go there, because that is a famers place . friendly people, nice views and traditonal coulorful cothloes. it has a special culture ..

Thursday, August 31, 2006

start another new term

nearly another new term... i have to ready the future of my graduate study . study hard and take out my whole power... blass me .

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

i am very sad , why i have no coulorful life in my mine since he went from me .. . why did you go so long and fast. i have no idea, no one can know me . and no one want to know the story about me . i just a very simple person, i just want to find a man who can makes me happy and treat like a princies.... i see so many friends of mine they have found their couple now and they look so deep inside the love .. i feel so happy for them but at the same time i feel so alone ...
alone walking in the street , shopping alone, reading alone, study alone, living alone...
i often think about the man who will be my couple , he is very nice and kind one , and the best point is he must like me so much and treat me very well... Now i know that is not that guy in the world..beacuse i have no the lucky life..

sadly sadly sadly

Friday, July 07, 2006

This month i will go to shanghai , that sounds very exciting now to me . Because i have never go to shanghai before, i just know that is a big national city,very forigners in there and so many chances in there. i will see my uncle and antiy and my sister. i will by air to there first time . so many first time to do , first time go to a place very far from here alone, first by air , first time to shanghai , first time ......

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Happy summer days

The summer vocation is coming soon. There is a long time to share with eachoter... so wonderful. i like it .

ABOUT UWE

i am often think about you , do you know uwe. all we have just for a winter in2005. That is my worst year in my life . but when i meet you. i still remember the day i meet you for the first time . we were in KFC. And i sat with my classmate. we had talked with how can i introduce myself to you . and then i walked to you ,i was very nerverse. but you were very friendly. it lets so good.

after that , you dated me watching the movie, i was afraid that i didn't trust you . so i rejust. but when you taked me to the English coner i knew you were a nice man, and i can trust you.i had a happy time with that afternoon, sports with badminten
and pingpong . we have a nice time . i still miss you , eventhough you said to me you don't love me , you just very like me , that isn't love. maybe i am not old enough , to you i am too young , you feel the distance between us , but i think i am very pleasure spend a lot of time with you.

i know you won't find my blogger, so i can write really feeling in here, just for myself. next month i will go to shanghai , a international city , and you also like it , right?

Saturday, July 01, 2006

life is so hard

what is the life? i have no idea. but i know it is very hard to me and my family . i saw a war of my family this morning. i have no idea.why ? for what? my mother she is working in the carifour.a supermarket of changsha. work is so difficult to her, because she is not young any more . so she have to learn everything at the begining .and some workmates not too friendly to her . her often feels that she can not deal with the new work .
And the other hand, about my father, he is a kind of man. i think he is the best father in the world . but his presses makes him older and older . that is the hard time. i mean my family is not rich .they wages can not apply my study . thank to my grandma and my uncle . they are very kind to me . and give the money to suppose the study . i have study hard and hard.
i do not see the crying of my mother , the dispperate of eyes from my father. they are all living in the hard time, and all for me .
maybe i want to be another person. that guy would catch any things for money . i don't want see the pray sky in my home . my mother my father . my grandma. i will do everything all for you . makes the life better and better.

Friday, June 30, 2006

开张第一天

不知怎么的 迷迷糊糊来到了这了, 也可以创建博客, 就申请了一个哈